Sunday, August 15, 2010

STRANGE

alexandra_Jnr_school_1970 This is my class of 1970, Mr Williams was the teacher. This is Alexandra Junior School, Singapore. I found this online. It makes me feel very strange. I am 4th from left, back row.

It gives me a yearning for the time and place yet this the place my clear memories of abuse start. This is where my father first almost killed me. It is also where I was accosted when playing in the jungle by a man who then sexually abused me. Whilst I am normally quite upfront about details, in the case of the sexual abuse, I do not feel it appropriate to describe what he did. I can only describe how he ripped my world , such as it was, apart. My father had been abusing me emotionally and physically for a long time by this stage but it was here that he came close to killing me. I was about 10 yrs old. In one of his rages he threw a case of books at me which hit the side of my head, pushing the other side of my head into the corner of an ornate coffee table leg. I was almost knocked out. I recall my mother leaning over me as I lay on the cough whilst she used a cold compress on my wound, all the while blaming me for what my father had done. If only I could be a good boy. This same woman slapped me and called me disgusting when I finally plucked up the courage to tell her what the man in the jungle had done. I only told her because the little girl next door had been accosted too so I thought I ought to say something. Needless to say I never told her anything again and that was the first of many times I was sexually abused. The next series of abuse was by a teacher who was a child pornographer. Nothing compared to my dads hatred of me and his continuing and worsening violence.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Colin,
Are you in the picture that you are showing us? If so, which row? Why was your family in Singapore?

Knitting-twitter said...

terrible..some parents are really not worth to be called parents..
I wish you a fantastic time in Germany and it would be very nice if you would take some pictures wearing your outfits.. I bet, they are smashing again..
have a great day..
Christa

Georgina (remoteknitter) said...

I was at Alexandra Jr School around that time - I am a couple of years older than you! Just the sight of the school uniform sent shudders through me - I am so sorry that such awful things happened to you in Singapore and beyond. Apart from this school and its hostile environment- what was the head's nickname, something like Cornelius???- and ghastly steps (which were aptly an ordeal each day) I loved the island.

joannamauselina said...

Gosh, it all looks so nice. That must be you in the upper left. A cute little boy. Amazing that one of your faithful readers went to the same school. And at almost the same time.