Fundamental Change

It would seem that my emotional clear out of the last few months of last year has brought about more change than I thought and at a deeper level than I have been aware.

Every time I have been away from home I do not sleep at all well and do not poo. Both of these things combined makes being away very difficult. I get very tired and confused and physically bloated and feel pretty awful.

Last Xmas when we went to Mannheim and spent time with new friends Diana and Lui and Lia, I not only slept each night but pooed too! It was not so easy the first night and I didn't poo for a couple of days but it was much better than it normally was.

This trip to Belgium was entirely without those two problems. I slept well from the first night and my bathroom habits remained normal. Phew!

This tells me that something has changed within me. I think part of that change is feeling more secure. Whatever it is, the change is obvious and shows itself in being able to sleep and have normal gut action when I am not on familiar ground.